Thursday, April 30, 2009
Just the second week and fourth day of school, Im drained of energy. Tired physically and ... mentally. Today turned out to be a black day. Make me realised good guy really isnt an easy post to do. Sometimes I feel if I manage to help someone, it's okay to lose out a bit. Clever good guy is always able to strike balance and obtained win- win situation. But im a stupid good guy who tries very hard to please everybody and get myself suffers in the end.
Win- win situation is really hard to obtain. Im tired.
Sometimes I just wish I can just do the things I wanna do and heck care the others. I kinda think that im this stupid good guy who thinks for others and isnt sure whether others will reciprocate the same level of consideration and understanding.
I dont even know why Im working so hard when nobody is recognising. I dont think they see the struggles when im working against my will to try and compromise them. And im unsure if they will think for me and go against their will to do something for me.
The worst thing is none of them had force me to do all those above. That's why im stupid. I hate stupid good guy.
I need time to chill and wont wanna elaborate more....
10:37 PM
Time now is 2am in the morning. But I was still very stubborn to finish this posting before I go to sleep. This is to prove that my passion is still burning and havent die out. I hope I wont suffer from panda eyes tomorrow. =P
Today was the last day of books selling. I took three books to sell on Monday. My Marketing, Accounting and Management Science books. I was so scared that I have to carry them back today if they had not been sold out. Imagine my happiness when I saw this two envelopes.
My Accounting and Marketing had been sold for $25 each! Yay. Unexpected gain. I expect to leave them rot at home but I never know they still got so much market value. Hope that their new owner will take good care of them.
Today went swimming with Celine and Holly. Before Holly came, we were talking about our soon- to- come Taiwan trip. I kinda wish I can fly there immediately. I had already made a list of to- buy stuffs.
Clothes, Shoes, Bags, Accessories, Foods, Souvenirs, Cosmetics, Perfumes, Wedding gift......
The stuffs are so girly. Haha. But im a girl!!! I just wanna pamper myself occasionally. And since it will be cheaper over there, why not indulge a little in this once in a lifetime chance? There's so many places we will be going during this study trip.
Some of the places are:
101 Taiwan building
Suitable for buying wedding, birthday gift and cosmetics =P
Shilin night market
Kenting night market
No No. We dont see Ruan Jin Tian and Peng YuYan over there. They finish fliming that show long time ago! We go there see cheap goods, okay? =DIn between, we still got go to visit some other places like Gao Xiong, Alisan and some factories plus University. I really cant wait. I think I might burst my luggage bags. But u know, I need to pay for the trip by cash. cashhhhhhhhhh....... $1600. I cant use psea because it's empty for my school fees. I will go apply for the bursary Mr Hockey said yesterday and pray everyday that I can get the $1000. It helps to subsidize my trip very much. Heard that the conditions arent really tough. So I think a lot of people will be applying as well. Ahhh. I need the money to subsidize. How???
Dear teachers, I am very poor. I dont own one branded. My handphone is free from resigning the plan. My watch was bought at super mega sales. My bag was 6 years old. Can u grant me the bursary so that I can subsidize my Taiwan trip? (pleading eyes) pleaseeeeeee.
Dear friends, I am saving money. U can save my wallet by:
1. Eat economically
2. Watching rental CDs
3. Lend me CDs
4. Leave me rot
If u want to make a donation, please call my home number for $10 donations, my handphone number for $50 donations. (joking) Ur kind, angel heart is very much appreciated. I promise I will bring back souvenirs. =D
Essay typed and submitted at 2:40am. Waking up at 10am in the morning. Wish me luck in getting up.
1:48 AM
Monday, April 27, 2009
I think my blog is really bulky with words. My friends said Im writing essays. Now that I read back, I also think Im writing argumentative essays. =P Plus, im like a complain queen. Complain this and complain that. I initially wanna complain about how people dun move to the rear of the bus on peak hour until the facebook thing stood out and proves to me that it's a stuff that worth complain more. Haiz. Old is getting a problem. I might turn out to be a difficult old hag.
Speaking about age, it links me to another issue. Today morning, a fine blue day freed of all unhappy thoughts was crushed and threw at my face when I arrived class. The second week, first day of school reopen. My first tutorial. My subject tutor, Mr Foo, used a very unique way to pair us up and make friend. Arrange in age order. The oldest stand on the right, youngest on the left. He still flashed his brilliant white teeth at me and oblivious that he, of so many topic, had touched the most sensitive one.
Haiz. Okay. Pair up. Paired with Eric from ex T02. A seemingly hack care guy who didnt print notes and do tutorial. Not that I mind that part but it is so cold and awkward without having any topic to say. Um, asked names. Silence............. Finally he asked one question. I thought I was so relieved that I could answer any of his question until ... "How old are you?"
"19 .(full stop)"
I dun feel like talking to him anymore and I turned back to Mr Foo who still innocently flashed his teeth every now and then. First tutorial reminded me of my age and my "enthusiatic" participation. Mr Foo likes to ask questions. Normal students' behaviour are look down, take notes, avoid eye contacts. That's what I did. Beside me, Eric, without any notes was reading other people blog on computer. Totally carefree. While me. Take notes fervently. I was super awared of my surrounding. Eric was spreading an aura that was impossible to not detect.
~~~What a damn nerd~~~damn nerddd~~~damn nerddddddddd~~~
Urgh. Okay. Im that stupid damn nerd. So what so what. I knew it when I saw the expression he gave when he saw my notes. It's either my instituition is so accurate or im imagining things. Be it any either one, I got a heartfelt thing I wanna say: I miss T01!!! Can I have all my classmates back? It feels so awkward in this class with so many separate entities. Haiz. Ok ok. I just got another essay published. (No photo to publish. I need to have a habit of taking photos.) Hope I just inspired Yiling to write more in her blog. Got to do my tutorial. End.
PS: I think Mr Foo is really suited to sell toothpaste. Not joking. (Background:HAHAHAHAHAHA)
7:56 PM
Was so damn pissed off with this stuff.
This guy from Prudential working as financial consultant tried to be funny and wanna add me on facebook. A similar guy working for the same company (I think) and same post tried that few weeks ago and I ignore that friend request. The guy who started first, named Shannon, called my number gathered from a survey which I helped Wei Ping did N weeks ago. At that time, I did say I was interested to listen to what he was going to say about the financial stuffs. I said I will get back to him the following weeks. But I regretted after that because he didnt wait for me to get back to him and called numerous times on my phone. Plus, he wanted to add me as friend on facebook when I was ??? about him. Nevermind. Right now this other guy named Zane Lam wanna try new trick. He send this message "Are you the Zhen Quek from TPSS whom I thought I think who u are?" Very funny. First, he got my name wrong. Second, he looks so damn old that he can be my uncle and he tried to link with me with a secondary school. Third, my profile clearly shows that I WAS A MEMBER OF TPSS.
I dun even think he knows what TPSS is. I try to come up with reasons for their actions and came up with two.
1. The company is really in need of clients.
2. This two guys are simply trying to be funny and think Im so stupid as to really think this guy is my long forgotten "old" friend and happily be friend with them.
I simply replied "Sorry. I dun think I know who u are and ur sentence doesnt make any sense."
Moral of the story: Dont anyhow express interest and look before answering call.
7:08 PM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Was obediently at home today. I got the whole afternoon to do my tutorial but my craze for blog keep urging me to write something. And since im going to write, I had decided to write something that im bottling up these few days. Today's main character - Ming Yi Fa Shi.
This guy was very well respected and loved ... ...
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few years ago. He did a lot of palm sweating acts on charity shows to receive more donations. For the sake of the sicks in the hospital, he stayed freeze up in a tank of ice water, walked vertically on a high floor building and a lot more. Just a click on google, it gave all the details u want about this guy. But he did something unforgivable. He spent the donated money when hundreds of people need that sums for their treatment.
I was not the kind who go fuss around about news issues, etc. But this news really pissed me off. They dug every dirty secrets done by this honourable monk and his assistant. Apparently, this two thought they were so damn rich having so much donated money for them to spend. They bought branded goods, sport car and apartments. And right now, these stuff were dug out, they got no reason to explain for their expenses.
I was having fun finding what this monk has to explain for these expenses but guess what. This monk was leading us by the nose and gave those nonsense answers. "People mindset changed when the world modernised.", "People have different viewpoint. It doesnt mean that all monks have to ask for food and live frugally like those in Thailand." I feel like shouting at him. PLEASE ANSWER THE QUESTIONS DIRECTLY.
I need to applause to the jury members, judge and lawyers for their patience. If I was there, I might smack him off his seat. Yes, monks dont have to be very frugal like those in Thailand but do u have a need to buy branded? This girl typing this entry over here doesnt even has one branded and is still living happily without it. What need does a monk has for a LV product??
Right now, he's still racking old accounts about his efforts for Ren Ci. About how much he sacrificed to become a monk. Perhaps, he did has good intentions and put in a lot of other efforts we did not see behind the screen initially. But his point had definitely changed. Because helping people is to let the others know what the sicks had suffered instead of boasting what the helper had done. Because helping people is to help them gained some monetary for their treatments instead of sharing the donated sums. It feels like he's just trying to get some pity from the crowd by letting them remember what he had done. It is soooo pathetic.
He can cry on the court. Act innocent and pitiful but his name is already stained. He made me regret that I ever donated to HIM. Im not heartless. My heart is meant to go for the patients and not him.
Um, before I end. I just wanna do something.
@#$^&*%$#%@%$%^
PS: The above is my personal opinion. Sorry if I had annoyed his fans (roll eyes). Speechless if there's still anybody who support him. Oh. And I initially wanna add one of his pic because my blog is getting bulky with words but I felt disgusted when I googled his photo. Better not spoil my mood further.
4:32 PM
Friday, April 24, 2009
Lecture
Woke up at 7am this morning. I havent woke up so early for quite some time. The last time was when I was working as the factory to factory sales promoter for Sartorius. Oh ya. I forgot to update that. I want to type that!! Haiz. Im digressing. Back to today first. Just yesterday I was worrying about getting late to school and to nobody's surprise, I was really late today.
Mr Lum was the lecturer for PCS. I was tuning in and out of his lecture the whole time. Despite that, I could still hear his boasting very clearly. About how his ex- student pestering him to ask questions and got the top of the whole level. About how the only guy who flunked DCM managed to get A for his subject. About how the NUS professor compliment on his tough exam questions. Haiz. Just the few pages of notes took him 1 and a half hour to finish. But he's a nice and funny lecturer, though.
Driving
After lecture, I had 3 solid hours to slack before my driving. I learnt blog template stuff from Yiling! Im so happy I could at least figure out some of those alien codings.
I only left 3 lessons before my test on 8th May. Today instructor was one of the ones I preferred. He was damn funny on the last lesson but I think he wasnt on the mood to joke today. He preferred his sleeping over chatting with me. But that's assuring because it means he trust my driving enough to sleep! I got even more confidence to pass after this lesson. U should look at the way I change lane! Nobody honk at me, kay!!! And got one stupid red car driver thought Im going to feebly drive slowly and overtake me. I think I took that driver by surprise cuz my speed matched with him. I had to kindly slow down and let him get back his lane (proud and arrogent face sticking to the wind).
Juniors Orientation
The orientation started at 3pm. But my driving ended at 4:15pm. So I only joined the LIG halfway through. Was a bit regretted to go back. Cuz my presence there was practically one word - extra, redundant. Okay, that's two words. No difference, right. I did nothing there except for some shouting and cheering. I missed a lot. They were all happy mixing here and there together. Im a separate entity. PLus the IG didnt need my help. It's just my kaypo-ness and a sense of responsibility to be there to know what's happening to account for the LOM blog. But other than that, I can just dissolve into the wall and nobody will have notice my absence. =X
This year juniors were mere 90 plus students. 20 plus students come from Myanmmar somemore. Quite pathetic numbers but I think they quite high compared to our batch. Girls stand a big portion and that puzzled me. Cuz I always believed logistics course is a magnet that attracts guys.
Today was a packed day. I think I could sleep once I hit the pillow. Tomorrow got flea market at katong. Im still considering whether I should go or not. Um, see first. I wanna sleep. Good night! =D
10:55 PM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Once upon a time, a little girl entering Primary school named Quek Ying Zhen was being nicked as Quack Quack. Many years later, she entered secondary school, she was still Quack Quack. More years later, in her Poly school life, her friends still called her Quack Quack. Since I think blog name should be representative enough of the person, I think Quek Quack is the best. Thousands of people will put up both hands and legs to support this blog name. I thought of naming it as "Purple-dreams" but that's too fake and girly. Plus, Quek Quack is easy to remember (I hope). My Chiongster Club members (especially) are going to love this name because
Miss Tay Han Ping's ex- handphone saved my incoming call ringtone as "quack quack. (pause) quack quack. (pause) quack quack." I dunno why she didnt find it irritating.
Miss Vanesa Zeng started the short form name and called me "Quek" in Year 1. Ever since then, whenever she calls me, she will say "eh, quek....." Her Year 2 clique also like this name and known me as "Ah Quek". I told her before that one day im going to ignore her and let her "quack" endlessly behind me.
Miss Cai Yi Ling told me to leave my tag name as Quack Quack in her blog and I obediently and stupidly follow her instruction.
Yup. Im should accept this name after so long and im glad I got this blog to complain. I also wanna put nice nice food photos like Janis. So I wouldnt envy her for having so many delicacies to eat. =P
5:36 PM
After so long, I had finally decided to make this blog. My very first blog! I had to thank LOM blog and Yiling for inspiring me to start this blog. Personally, im a person whose passion only last a while. I hope I had enough fuel to keep this blog going. I wrote diary in the past but my diary writing pattern is
Stage 1: Passion
Stage 2: Write daily
Stage 3: Accumulate incidents to write
Stage 4: Write the dates and headings and wait for free time to fill in details
Stage 5: Put diary aside
Stage 6: Let the diary books rot
Currently, im at stage 1. So, I had lots of passion to write and crap about. I feel like putting every nice things that happened before in one entry. Is that possible?? Wait wait. Current affairs first. Today is my fourth day of school reopening. Surprisingly, I like school and lessons! I suddenly find them very precious because I love my friends and this lifestyle. It's so much better than working. I hope school days dun end so soon. For goodness sake, im in the last year! 3rd year student in Temasek Poly!
That is so so old. Im old. Im going to turn 20 soon. I hate the number "2"!!!! I never dread my birthday coming before except for the year when I turned 18. Look at me. Im not even mentally prepared to be an adult. There's only 4 more months to enjoy my teenage year. But im a bit happy today. =) CCA booths were distributing flyers to me madly today. What it means?
It means im still look like Year 1. Muahahahaha. Dun tell me im fantasizing. Even if I am, bluff me. Say im not. Just treat it as humoring an old hag.
Oh oh. And I already know my class. T05. Quite a lot of people I knew were in same class as me!! ^ ^ Plus my beloved Celine and Cherry were in same class as me. Hahaha. Pity is Weiping and Wenni in other class. And my Year 1 Chiongster foursome, three went to the same class except me. But im still contented to be in this class. The timetable is considered good among the other classes. T04 had the best timetable.
See See. That's my timetable. The good point is the latest time I had was 4pm. The bad point is I had to reached school at 9am! This is a serious problem. I cant sleep more and had to wake up everyday at 7am and squeeze the 8:30 bus 8. The worse worse thing is I cant be late! Mr Lim said today that if we are late by even 1 second, they will mark us as absence. This is crazy! Meaning if I walk in at 9:00:02, im absent. If that's the case, I will be marked absence for the whole sem!!! My highest late record was 9:25 and last sem, my punctual record can be counted using ten fingers. 9AM!!! U might as well finish me off. Cool!! I wrote a big chunk unknowingly. But I still got a lot to blabber. Sorry, if u are pissed off reading my blabbering but im full of passion now. I AM UNSTOPPABLE!!! MUAHAHAHAAHAHAaaaaaaaaaaaa...............
4:20 PM