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Thursday, April 30, 2009
Just the second week and fourth day of school, Im drained of energy. Tired physically and ... mentally. Today turned out to be a black day. Make me realised good guy really isnt an easy post to do. Sometimes I feel if I manage to help someone, it's okay to lose out a bit. Clever good guy is always able to strike balance and obtained win- win situation. But im a stupid good guy who tries very hard to please everybody and get myself suffers in the end. Win- win situation is really hard to obtain. Im tired. Sometimes I just wish I can just do the things I wanna do and heck care the others. I kinda think that im this stupid good guy who thinks for others and isnt sure whether others will reciprocate the same level of consideration and understanding. I dont even know why Im working so hard when nobody is recognising. I dont think they see the struggles when im working against my will to try and compromise them. And im unsure if they will think for me and go against their will to do something for me. The worst thing is none of them had force me to do all those above. That's why im stupid. I hate stupid good guy. I need time to chill and wont wanna elaborate more....
10:37 PM
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