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Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I think time pass too fast. I hardly realise school started and now, we are facing mid semester test. It's too exaggerating. Are we on a video tape that is being fast forward? I thought I just celebrated Johnny day and it's Johnny day again today. Anyway, Johnny was being bullied again during class. I think my class is at their peak when they attend his lesson. They like to bully him and he will laugh along with us even though he was being ridiculed. Havent start project. This semester feels so wrong. I have no mood to study. The class doesnt seem to be a class either. Feels so empty. No cohesiveness. No fun. Feel a bit worse than my Year1 class even though I knew many in current class. Had tuition with that violent kid today. Starting was okay. He seemed attentive now that his maths exam is on Friday. But after an hour, he started to reveal his real self. He sang 今天你要嫁给我 horribly and fill the song with his own lyrics. Im like talking to the air while explaining his mistakes. And I think I exceeded my anger limit. I scolded him. Shouted like nobody business. Even his grandma next door heard me, I think. Cause she closed the door.But I feel so better after scolding. Think im bottling my anger too much. Feel so shuang when I shutted his mouth and made his eyes watery. I said; "Go ahead and sing again. Why arent you singing? I doesnt bother me anymore. Since THE EXAM IS YOUR BUSINESS. NOT MINE. IM SEEING HOW YOU FAIL THEM." And he glared at me. I glared back. I wonder if Johnny is also bottling up his anger. I advise releasing them out. It really feels better. Am I sounding like a psycho? I hope not.
11:26 PM
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