Dear Mother Earth, im a sinner. I changed my handphone even though it is still workable. I am so materialistic and had been admiring it since I bought it. But you have to understand, it is foc after renewing contract. It couldnt have been so bad, is it???

Im lagging behind in blogging. =X So much to update...
Anyway, the Big Day that I had waited for so long finally came!!!!! and goes.... Everything feels so surreal. Even now when im typing, I feel like that whole incident happened so long ago when the whole episode just ended this morning. Dunno why I just cannot registered the event with today and yesterday.

Last day of SIP was yesterday. A bit attached to the company. Laoma helped me prepared foods to bring over and treat them. They were ....... scary. 3 boxes of cakes, 3 packets of fish crackers and 1 box of home-made agar agar. In the end had to mobilise my dad to drive and send me there since I could not carry all those throughout the journey. Initially thought that those foods can last them for quite some times but I had seriously underestimated the power of those driver uncles. They just made a round at the pantry area and the whole area looked like it was being attacked by a tornado. 2 boxes of cakes and agar agar almost finished by around 2pm. They didnt even throw the empty boxes away. Very messy.

My jobs for last day of work were usual. Picked up calls. I excitedly told one of the usual clients that im leaving after yesterday. ^^ But the whole feeling wasnt like usual. I know that after yesterday even if I do go back to the company for project or even work as staff again, the whole feel will be very different. A bit sad. Winnie kept calling my name because she said after yesterday, she wun have much chance to call my name again. =( So touched.

Delayed my knock off time because phone calls kept pouring in last minutes. Need to inform them about certain deliveries too. In the end, I was running and rushing for time to meet the group to go Sentosa. Chloe kindly came and helped me carried the stuff but was also delayed by me. In the end had to take taxi over to vivo. $17.20, kay. So expensive. That uncle wanna A our money and delayed by driving slowly to the taxi stand. Added $0.20. Angry.

By the time we reached, it was around 11pm. The chalet room damn small but cosy. The credit go to celine and weiping who cleaned up the room before we came. They said there was a smell when they first came and had to open the door and let air ventilate in. We waited for the official arrival of wanyan and wenni before we surprised chloe and celebrated her birthday.

Got quite a number of photos with Chloe. I got really entertained while looking at those photos. Wonder how the photos at Chloe's side turned out.

I also took a number of photos with my colleagues but all not with me..... =( Hope they send me soon.

Should be damn happy that my SIP is nearing. Should be blogging about the past few missing entries.

But my mood bloody hell ruined by this stupid computer and an email. If I can, I f***ing wanna throw this computer out of the window. There is a limit to the slowness. If I can finish three weeks of delayed log book entry and it bloody hell havent load a simple facebook page finish, there is something very wrong with the computer. Even replying emails took a damn 30 minutes to wait for it refresh and wait for the stupid "reply to all" button come out. How shit can it be.

Because the computer already ignited my anger. I am super angry when I finally load the hotmail page and read the email. I dun think anybody is really enthusiatic about it. I really dunno why im working so hard like it's my once-in-a-lifetime affair like that. Do you know how f***ing piss off it is to receive little or no reply. At least im asking questions, isnt it courtesy to reply?? Im damn tired everyday like everybody. But I really made an effort to switch on this stupid slow computer and wasted all my patience on it just to reply an email EVERYDAY. I really mean everyday. Sometimes I didnt reply because nobody f***ing bother to reply. I thought by waiting, I can get replies. But the event is 2 days away. Is checking and replying email so tough?

Im so tired of waiting. By that day, if you wanna come, come. Dun wanna come, dun come. I hate asking already. At the very most, I will just eat the chips bought myself and stay at home.

You know. When the day that you are anticipating is arriving soon, you cant think of anything but just wanna count down. Im sooooo looking forward to it.

I think im really lacking of time. Too many things to do. Too many. Will I ever be able to finish my work???

Tuesday went delivery with despatch uncle. Practically no break in between. Not as awkward as I thought. Think im just over paranoid. Im quite talkative, I forgot. And I think that uncle quite happy to have people accompany since his van radio broke down. =P I was actually on a spy mission cause Daniel and Andy wanna know how he usually works. Heard he hasnt really been very efficient which piss them off. The moment I entered his van, that uncle also asked me if I was there to spy him. Luckily clever me not so stupid to give my spy position away. School report is the best excuse ever. Being a student really gives a lot of benefits and excuses. I just kept saying "I wanna do my report research." which wasnt quite a lie too. He also believes me. muahahahahaha.

Didnt have my lunch that day. Doesnt really have much appetite too. The other driver uncles were quite facinated that I really followed that driver uncle out for delivery. They kept pm-ing that driver uncle through walkie talkie. Walkie talkie is so fun. ^ ^

Planning to go expo tomorrow for MPH book fair. Today Andrew suddenly asked when im leaving next week. Then they were discussing which day they are free. Alice, the traffic coordinator, is going for holiday next monday. So they all agreed to empty tomorrow night because Daniel is TREATING. lol. Andrew said it is going to be my farewell dinner. I so touched. Cause this office had a lot of despatch resigning or sacked every now and then but none of them ever had what farewell dinner before. Daniel even took out the Seafood brochure and asked if it's okay to eat seafood tomorrow. Everybody was so excited about what to eat tomorrow.

When I finally took my courage and told them I wanna go for expo tomorrow, they all boo me. =X I think they look forward to free dinner more than farewell me. But it's the thought that counts. I also think it's a bit rude to reject. Just that I still prefer to go expo to sweep away my shopaholic books collection rather than going to the dinner.

Today is Thursday!!! Tomorrow is Friday!!! 20th Nov!!!! Celine and weiping coming back tomorrow!!!! How time flies. I go roll red carpet and welcome them back. =P

Left 10 working days and here I am, finally on my long dreamed MC...

This MC doesnt come easy. Personally, I want to thank my parents who accompany me to Polyclinic to get my MC, my brother who add sugar and spices to my mum and let her believe that bloody stomachache will go worse, the diarrhea itself which only last for a few minutes in the morning, my bed which welcome me warmly back to sleep, the polyclinic doctor who handled me ever so swiftly like he had seen lots of people who cheat their way through to get a MC...

I just wanna say I REALLY had diarrhea this morning! It's true!!! Just that I dunno why they went as soon as they came. I totally had no intention to skip work!!!!!!

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Okay. Maybe a little. Cuz im really tired and I know I will be late after my second diarrhea. Today is supposed to deliver goods with uncle. So I also got a bit unwilling to go..... A bit only, kay. A bit........

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Haiz. Okay. I admit. Slightly more than a bit. It's raining for goodness sake. I know it's not raining in the morning but I ........ I foresee it will rain today. I also very heartache about the money. $10.40 on a MC. Though Andrew did say I can claim the fees from company, im a bit guilty to do so.... Maybe I will bring the tax invoice if he ask again.

MC day is so relaxing. I probably should be carrying cartons, running in the rain right now but im sitting comfortably on my chair, blogging. =P

Hohohohoho. Im super glad to say im no longer aunty quek. Call me hao seh kia (youngster)! Woohoo~~~ Ok ok. I know a lot would probably roll eyes on me. Number 1 because rebonding hairs just after 4 weeks is a total waste of money. Number 2 because the curly hairs me doesnt really look very bad. Number 3 because a lot dun understand my repulsion to curly hairs. Number 4 because it will damage my hairs further. Number 5 because straight hairs are a bore......

I admit. Im a bore. =)

I had internal struggle for very long. It's not like I haven consider all these things before. That's why I cancelled and remade my decisions for several times until Yiling dun wanna listen to me. Tsk tsk. My colleagues also persuaded me not to waste the money and apply lots of conditioners. They said the hairs look tamer and nicer already. I agreed also. But I still dun like them. My decision was rewarding after the rebonding yesterday. Even without my 600+ degree spec, I FINALLY RECOGNISE MY OWN REFLECTION!!! Hahahahahaha. Still remembering the time when I finish perming, I saw the reflection and wondered to myself "Omg, who the heck is this aunty?"

Yesterday, after the super duper long chemical applying session and a wash, I finally saw myself!!!! As in myself. You know?? Myselfffffffff!!!! Muahahahahaha... Im going to dye my hairs next week!!! So damn happy even though my wallet is skinnier. Crazy me.

And I cant believe I only left 10 working days!!!! YAYYYYYYYYY!!!! Just when I dun think I can stay any longer, im leaving very very soon!!!! If only the days can reduce further.... Okay. I wun be greedy. 10 days past damn fast too. Im so looking forward to next Saturday. Because I can dye my hairs and celine and weiping are back! Hohohohoho.

~~~Im surrounded with happy, blissful aura.~~~

Mmmmmm. The blissful aura is a null set of

- The just started report writing which cracked my brain just by thinking.
- The prominent delivery job tomorrow. =( Andrew made me to do delivery with one of the uncles. Dread because I dunno what to talk to uncle. Im not so worried about carrying goods part. I can treat it as exercise. But im super scared of awkward silence~~~~

The days past really fast!!! I can still remember how I told old vege that we should persevere and we had survived 3 weeks already. Now more than 2months had past! We left 12 days!!! Hurray!!!! I cant wait for my lovely school days to return even if it means more stressful projects and works.

Today, I followed Andrew out for delivery and meeting of potential client. Deliveries were easier because the loads werent heavy. Meeting the potential client was quite an eye opener. They appeared to have joke and chat. But there were a lot of hidden knifes shoot here and there. They were like competing who knew the superiors and such. Omg omg omg. Got a bit lost over there. Halfway throught their politic talks, I almost wanna sleep because they sounds like lecture to me. Personally, I think the client quite pro. He was like the standard Buyer model walking out of the Purchasing notes old Lim taught. He kept letting Andrew do the talkings and really really looked bored and busy. I was a bit uptight because I dunno how I should come in to talk and such. Sat damn up straight until my back ache. Old already. Cant blame. Fiddle with his namecard and dropped on the floor twice. So pai seh to bend and picked them up.

By the way, I wanna rebond my curly hairs this Sat. A bit heartache to waste so much money. =X To my curly hairs supporters, say goodbye to my curly hairs. Dun roll eyes in front of me, kayy!!!! =D

You dunno how much I wish SIP would end. I have difficulty denying my heart, brain and body and pushed myself to work especially every monday. Stomachache this morning. Thought I could make use of this reason to skip work. Damn body suddenly damn healthy. No pain, nothing. My brother kept coughing and coughing. So hopeful I can get infected from him since I always does when he got sick. Damn body, super healthy. Im going to drop all the hopes of getting MC.

All the gravity pulling down on me. Dragged myself and took double the time I used to get myself ready. As expected, I know I was going to get late. But I was pretty confident since I had new bus on mind to take. Thought it will make me faster. Too confident. Not good. Damn bus stuck in every traffic lights and bus stops. Soon enough, I was too late. Quickly alight to take taxi. Waited so long and didnt see one in sight. Got so panicked that I called back home to whine. I feel like im some primary kids. Wanting to skip school just that it's working that is in the context right now. I cant wait to go back school.

Reached office at 9:20. That somebody was of course in the office. He didnt scold. Just say. But I still feel angry. Maybe angry with myself. Wun elaborate anymore. It's a bad day and I havent get anything I wanna do on my list done. Everything sucks. =(

Forgot to add. I been driving every Sunday these few weeks. I realised im getting better! =D At least I didnt panic while changing lane and parking. Just that my changing of gear kept posing a problem. Just now wanna change to gear 4 but I changed to gear 2. The whole car kept protesting while I pushed the gear 2 to 40 to 50km/h. My mum said she can sleep while my dad is driving but she dun dare to sleep while im driving. Seriously.. Im getting more confident in driving, kay!! =P I accelerated to near 100km/h just now. Though I know it's nothing, I cant help but feeling a bit proud of myself. Dear friends, sooner or later when my dad and mum are more confident with me, I can really drive you all around!!! Please get your insurance as soon as possible! =D

Never dream I will go out with colleagues. The feeling of going out for fun after work was pretty good. The whole day not in the mood of working. Just keep thinking what are we going to do after work. Immediately headed to K at the Bedok family karaoke after the restless working hours. Surprisingly, I enjoyed myself. They were very high and so was I. Sang so loud that Winnie find the way back to our room from toilet by following the sound of our voices. Dunno why I always got back the same room that I went the first time. Me and that room got affinity. Kept remembering how I went there with celine, weiping and chloe after a very tired camp and havoc there, played pillow fight. =D

In the end only left me and Meng Tong for shopping. She wanted to watch the korean agent show but I think our luck not very good. Tickets sold out. I a bit scare shopping with her. Cuz I think she very willing to spend money. No restraint. Unlike me, need to budget this, budget that. Went in a black shop at Bugis street. Note, it's Bugis street. Saw a nice black necklace and I thought if it's below $20, I can consider buying. Shocked the hell out of me when she said it's $89.90. What the???? I see it as just a string and a few pieces of ornaments stuff. Then Meng Tong picked out a shirt and let me tried. In the fitting room, I peeked at the price tag..... $79.90!!! Omg omg omg. Quickly left that shop. Went for ice cream instead. And Meng Tong suggested we go and play arcade which suits me very very well. =D But I think she isnt cut out for arcade. Too refine for arcade. Play arcade must Bang Bang Bang Bang Bang that kind. But she just Bang.... Bang. Dampened the mood a bit. Went for some fried sotong head and popiah at Old Chang Kee for dinner (squatting outside Old Chang Kee, a bit embarasssing) and went home, empty handed after a day shopping. Suits me fine too because I got no money. =X

There are a lot a lot a lot a lot of things to do. So many that I didnt know which one I should start with. I hope I have got enough them to finish them. One Sunday isnt enough...

16 days to go... Gambatte everybody!!!

Not a happy day. In fact, it's sucky. I never made so many mistakes in one day. Forgot this, forgot that. I think I pissed my colleague off with my mistakes. And my colleague pissed me off with her Taiji. My mistakes, pushed to me. Not my mistakes, also pushed to me. Her Taiji damn pro, man.

Innocently kana scolding from an unreasonable customer who dun listen to what I have to say first. Damn fuxxing angry. Feel like im fuel with enough energy to shut her fuxxing mouth with shit. Office atmosphere so tense and unhappy because of one person. It's still the same person. I wonder how many more tricks he has to make us hate him more.

So many unhappy stuff covering my initially happy topic of booking a decent chalet at Sentosa. I really hope SIP ends soon. Damn tired and angry everyday. =(

Im quite happy with the pace days are passing right now. Fast. And I hope it's smooth too but life is never the way you want it to be. It's fast but bumpy. I had hell lots of complaints, complaints, complaints and complaints for stuff that I didnt do and mistakes that werent made by me. Customers just like to keep shooting so long as they had one target to vent their anger on. Sadly, I just happened to be the one that got shot every phone calls I picked up. Badly injured now. Next time I will wear a vest like Mr Tan poh chuan. See how they shoot me. I shoot them back eh.

A bit frustrated this morning. They hired a new part timer just to answer calls in the morning. Whole morning phone rang like hell. Dunno what the newcomer doing. Never pick up call and kept facing the computer. They rearranged the working hours for every stuff so much so that two of the phone calls answering specialists can come in at 10:30. Hence, I was practically the one who answered most of the calls. Yesterday jobs had a lot unfinished. Today's complaints piled. Felt like shouting at the newcomer to pick up the phone.

First time in my life, I got invited to a Malay wedding. My colleague getting married!! Hohoho. DUm dum me read and re-read the whole invitation card and got confused by the chunks of unknown malay words. Just saw the sentence, "request the honour of your presence at the marriage of their daughter." I thought his daughter was getting married and got super shocked because he was only at his twenties. I exclaimed loudly and asked "omg, you got a daughter?"Got laughed by my colleagues. Moral of the story, read the card carefully.

Dread working tomorrow. Dear 26th nov, come to mama.

Left 4 more weeks. Must tahan.

That's practically what every lecturer said to us. I was super duper happy yesterday about going back school. Real happy to go back and sit in LT, listening to lecture feel. But happiness was short lived. I never feel so dejected and dishearten for so long other than yesterday. It' s not as if I didnt make an effort or what. Because I made that effort, it is really disheartening to know that people doesnt appreciate it.

And I always thought that leader is just a name on the outside. I think im so wrong. Starting to doubt my ability if I can lead. omg omg omg...

Fretting about 26th November the whole day yesterday. Both Yiling and my temper were bad. I think we made a lot of people unhappy. I also wanna apologise. And I really didnt purposely spread it. Haiz. Nobody has NTUC card member. How I wish someone can generously flash me their card and let us book Sentosa chalet. =(

Went to Chloe's house to use computer. I think her father is really nice and sincere about feeding us. Stepped in not long and we were each served with a glass of orange juice that looks like what those rich people drank from, sun tanning beside the swimming pool. Soon, there was a large plate of fruits that was dished out. Even almightly wanyan admit her defeat. Hahahaha. At least the evening part made up for the morning and afternoon unhappiness. Chat until I kept delaying the time to leave the house and takeaway for my mum and brother. =)

(Somehow when I was typing the last sentence, I kept remembering about shu hui and holly's unhappiness. =D <-- flash white white teeth. No bias no bias. I love you all too. Just in case, I love yuewen, tracey.... everybody.)