Uni course submission starts next week. I honestly have no idea of what to take or what I can take. JDLSG told me to use cancelling method. Cancel away those I dun like. I think if I use that method, I would have left with no course to take. Haha. Cuz I dun like Engineer, not good in IT, helpless in Arts, scared of Science and bored of Business. So technically I should be working. Worst of all, I happened to hate working as well. I dunno what the bloody hell I should do. I told them I actually wanna try taking psychology but they think it's impossible. I also think it's quite unlikely la since I haven touch science since JC's chemistry which I failed terribly. Becuz uni's school fees are so exp. I dun dare to waste one year experimenting and realise I dun like what im learning.

I wanna get the best out of life. In fact, I hate to conform to the normal 9-6 office style. I know I cant stand it like those dark SIP days. I totally remember how I wish it's the end of the day every morning when the day just starts. Imagine forcing yourself to go work every every day for the sake of money. Wasting every every minute of your life doing stuff that you really really hate doing. Is that call living? Today interview one dispatch uncle. He said handling Ad-hoc, life can pass easier. Sooooo... Life is about making it to pass faster and easier? =(

Imagine working forcefully, 10 or more years down the road, I started to question myself "What have I really been doing all these years?" It's so sad. Totally meaningless. To live for the sake of living. To work for the sake of money. To smile for the sake of faking. Then wasting all those years so that life can pass easier, in another word, waiting to die lah.

Haiz. Bloody. Write so long still no conclusion. Time is almost 12am. Haven accomplish anything. Celine is going to scold me for sleeping late again. I think laoma should be nagging me soon. Hohoho. Just said only. She start asking liao. Kay lah. Tomorrow stuff, tomorrow then think. Adieu~~