I know our differences right from the start. The differences are so big that I sometimes cant stand it any longer. The topics we talked are different, the language we want to use are different, the things we are interested are different... in fact everything is different. Yet, I have to put up with everything. Rather walking solo, than engaging in meaningless superficial conversations.

I know this is life. But I just cant come to term with it. Maybe I'll somehow, eventually. But not now. Im getting used to alone. Eat alone, walk alone, attend lecture alone. But im at ease at it. Becuz all of these are at my own pace.

Think im failling my tests. I dun think anybody can understand how I feel.

Maybe like they said, im lazy.