Baby's book out time very precious. And today so fast jiu over le. Haizz. Slacking time with baby, the fatty zoe who keep thinking she's slim and isaac. The moment is so invaluable. But it's over so soon. Ate Ben & Jerry again. Enjoy life to the max! wooo!! But me and baby very tired today. Maybe cuz we slept at 5am on friday night. Lol... Too long never chat on msn. Chat until very shuang then realised it's too late le.

Fatty zoe's medicine smells so disgusting. Lol.

Baby tried to hook one bear bear for me from those kiap machines in marina square. Dunno why other people hook until so easily then got bear bear and we hook so many times and keep failing. Wasted $10. Lol heart pain. =xxx

We watched "I am number four". So nice lor!!! The movie quite action packed. So cool~ But pity we too full to eat popcorn and nachos. I have cravings for nachos but too full to eat just now. Feel so sad. The movie shocked me several times. Really nice lor. But there's no proper ending off to the movie. Maybe there's second movie bahh.

Everybody hates to be sick. But army guys love to be sick to escape trainings and meet with love ones longer. Lol.... Maybe baby will be sick tml???

Wanna blog ytd. But too too too tired.

Ytd went to border sale at expo with ah gong. Though I really really really dun wanna be late. Im still late. Im so disappointed with myself. =(( But I believe if I make the constant effort to think that I dun wanna be late, someday I wun be late! Ah gong said that if the day I reach earlier than her and wait for her, she will strike 4D or toto. And 10% of her winning will give to me!!! Hohohoho!!! So I write down here as proof. So that next time she cant deny her promise..

Border sale is a disappointment. Cant find much books from the authors we want. But I managed to get one cecelia ahern book. Got give one complimentary bag somemore. But pity it's pink in colour. So girly. Think if nobody wants, maybe it will be leave to rot in my room. Lol. Found one panda looking portable speaker. Very very cute. $5 only. So I buy. Now a bit regret never buy another one for fatty zoe. Cuz it's so cheap and cute.

We queued 2 and a half hour for our purchase. Queued until my back ache. Old liao. Queue so long not good for backbone. We make friend with an aunty who want us to help her buy her books becuz she no time to queue from the end. Dunno why given my temper, ytd I didnt throw temper for waiting so long.

Ah gong bought two books of serial killers. I didnt know Jack the ripper and countess really exist. Read with horror and disgust. Traumatize me the whole day. Even when I walked home, I kept thinking maybe someone will kidnap me away and kill me. =S

Went ang mo kio before fetching baby out. So long no go ang mo kio le. The chicken rice there really quite nice. But very oily. Lol.

Friday night ate a lot a lot. Chicken rice with ah gong and cup noodles cum campbelle soup cum potato chips with baby!!! Enormous appetite. So scary. When I went home, I realised my mum left some soup for me and I drank those too. I hope I wun become like pang like ah gong said. Hahahahahaha~

Quek Ying Zhen is a time waster. Wasted the past few hours since afternoon till now doing nth except stalking friends on fb, painting nail polish on fingers, read blogs and post two entires. I hate quek ying zhen. Hate hate hate her. Got so many things to do. Why dunno how to cherish the time. Quek Ying Zhen is a stupid time waster. =(((

Dua Pui sick liao. Chomp chomp cancelled.

Baby totally didnt contact me for the whole morning, afternoon all the way until 7 plus. =(( I tot what happen. But it turned out that he was sent to yishun camp to swim today. Swim whole day sia. Maybe after those swimming, his big tummy will be gone and he wun be call fatty chew le. Wahhh... then dua pui sick, no appetite also slim down... and isaac go train gym... then only left me... then I will be the fattest dua pui among them!!! Omgggggggggg!!!! And I just ate new year biscuits before I bathed.... omggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!

24 Feburary 2011

Im still the same. Haven start work and visited all the blogs and fb. Why am I so lazy?? =(

Ytd went K. Fatty zoe and zhenhao super late for more than 1 hour. Me and ah yong kor kor K like hell. Dunno how fatty zoe end up in henderson wave. Joker. In the end she had to leave early becuz got kaima's command to let her go back early. Ah yong kor kor drank and K until psycho. hahahahahaha~

Fatty zoe and zhenhao got super cravings for chomp chomp. So I promised to bring them go tml night after we go fetch baby from camp.

Tml also got expo book fair! Luckily got car. I think ah gong will buy a lot to add to her mini library collection.

I throw away my first flower ever becuz it attracted flies. Feel so sad now. I kept its ribbon though. As souveneir.

Really lazy to start work. =( Nokia hp no msg since early afternoon. I think it got problem??? Why no msg??? =((( Sony ericsson phone officially got problem. Ytd night switched back to use a while but cannot see incoming msgs. =(( So shitty.

Haizzzzzz. I dunno how long I must drag before I find the mood to start work. Geo assignment due on 1st march. But my group still at discussion. Progress damn slow. Howwww??? My weekends are busy one lehhh.... Hope it will finish before weekends so that my weekends wun have to do work.

This week recess week. Finally got arrange some relaxing activity. Going K later with dua pui zoe, ah yong kor kor and zhenhao. Feel like K-ing since last week. But becuz of sore throat and project cannot go. I think I passed my disease to dua pui zoe. Now she also sore throat and cough and flu. Think the both of us tonight go K will go out of tune. But I dun care! I just wanna go! Wahahahahahaha...

Actually I have a lot of work to do. But I very lazy. Visit finish facebook and everybody's blog still lazy to start work. I hope the lazy bugsssss leave me alone. Im a very hardworking girl one. Just that now im inflicted with lazy bugs. So it's not my fault. It's the lazy bugs' fault. I wanna scold the lazy bugs... I saw them on my bed!!! So im going to my bed to scold them!!! Bye people!!!! I help u all scold them too!!!

Today is kind of a failure. Im still late a little for the group consultation. I think I have a serious problem. I can lost track of time easily. Like when I eat, I will feel bored and tempted to pull the newspaper to read. And when I am about to change clothes, I can stand in front of the wardrobe and fa dai like the clothes will come out automatically for me to wear. Serious problem leh. Haiz.

I will change lah. I will consistently remind myself. A small step is still consider a step. So gradually, I can totally change the whole bad habit away! Baby set my punishment for lateness le. Either I need to drink 1 litre of water at one go like army style of hydrating, or I need to eat two sets of mac to stuff myself up. I love mac la but if I eat two i maybe will vomit and wun touch mac for one month bah. So either way I also dun like it. Then I will avoid being late. I hope I really can shake off this bad habit.

The bad thing about having a toilet in your room is that whoever shits, u also can smell the shit smell. =S

Haven bathe yet. Haiz. Still in online project discussion. Nowadays the project discussion in flow is never ending. Siannnnnnn... I WANNA BATHE!!!!!!! =(((((((((((((((((((((

Going 1am but I haven bathe. Becuz just now I helped dua pui zoe with her accounting assignment. I so long no touch accounting le. Balance sheet cannot balance. Do until I headache. What's more I before that had a project meeting and rushed through a 1200 words writeup within 2 hours. Haiz. Do balance sheet do until I pek chek. In the end still need to ask her friend.

Picture a bit blur. Cuz use the sony errison phone to take one.

Going to bathe le. Looks like today cant sleep early. Haizzzz....

Ytd celine's 21st bdae! I think time passed very fast. That time I 21st, so fast she 21st le. Baby and ah zoe came with me to the celebration. Delayed a little bit to print and find present. But in the end, we managed to meet up with the group on time. I think we very very long no meet. A bit saddening to think that we used to see each other everyday in the past. Everybody still the same except wp went to dye her hairs.

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! TODAY FINISHED TWO PRESENTATIONS!!!! YAAYYY!!!!!

Yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay!!!!! Cleared sg society presentation and eng module presentation today! I think I very pro. All without rehearsal. The sg society presentation I anyhow bomb also let me bomb out!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..... Qyz... I think u very pro lehhh... omggggg...

Today lesson starts from 11am to 6pm without break! Yao le wo de lao ming. Old liao still need to rush from diff schools for different lessons. Why the stupid school cannot be more student friendly?? No escalator and very few lifts. Climb the stairs climb until I wanna scold people. Why build school in a jungle....

Eng module presentation sucks. The tutor came in late. The first group got whole 1 hour to present. We are supposed to be the second group but the tutor heard we got a lot of slides so she made us last group to present. By the time other groups present, we only left a few minutes to present. The class is half gone for their next lesson le lor. Sucky tutor. Bias de. I put in effort to do the presentation lehh. Ytd also 4am then sleep. In the end, only got a few mins to present our work.

Got a lot of complaints lahhh.. I also wanna complain the computer module. I dunno anything about what hub and switch and how it connect modem and router and what's V.44 thingy de.... Blame myself lor.. Gei Kiang, act smart, go and take computer module. Now dunno what to do. During tutorial, tutor explained the connection thingy. I think I got a dumb look. He very kindly looked in my direction and asked if I understand. But I bu hao yi si make him repeat smth the class alrdy know so I nod. But but... I really dun understand!!!! What am I going to do???!!!

Haiz. Luckily got one recess week. Need to try and catch up and read my textbook.

Today didnt go movie with shu hui, holly and zhenhao. Feel so bad. But I cannot go... Fate asks me to do my ssa writeup draft.

Still discussing online for geo project. Just took medicine an hour ago. Think the medicine got drowsy effect. Now super tired~ super super sleepy... I tried to tell them im not feeling well and wanna sleep. But they IGNORE me.... Tsk tsk... So heartless...

10 days ago I went to see doctor. 10 days later, I went to see doctor again. =(( Fever and sore throat relapse. This time throat more pain than last time. Eat everything really feel like swallowing sands. I still can taste the food. I still get hungry and tempted by food. But when I eat and swallow, the taste and craving just disappear. Cuz it's really pain. =( And dunno why this two times sick, I get rashes. I dun think is drug allergy. But I dunno what leads to the rashes. My pinky finger is swollen again. Though not as swollen as the last time.

The doctor said maybe my body had built up immune system to defend the anitbiotic. He prescribed me a stronger antibiotic. But if this antibiotic doesnt work on my body, I may have to undergo operation to remove my thorat dunno what thingy. The word operation just scares me lah. Operation means money and time and pain. =((( I wish I dun have to go through operation. I wish I dun get sick and eat awful medicine. I wish I can eat food happily again. Appetite shrinks a lot becuz of this stupid sore throat. =((

Today despite being sick, I still went to rws to collect surveys. Becuz I cannot leave ruiting alone to collect. Going back to rws brings back memories. It then reminds me that I haven been there for almost 2 months. 2 months sound silly and short. But it feels like very long to me. My longest break was around 1 month. And I was still prohibited to work until exam finish at end of april. Dunno why I was so attached to the place. Too much memories le bahh. Miss there...

Surveys damn hard to collect. People not cooperative at all. Whole 2 hours plus only collect 8 surveys. Then it started to rain and we gave up. Lol. Went to the candy store in rws to relax a while. It's like entering paradise! All the stuff like edible and made of chocolate. The store is also filled with sweet smell. I saw the ice cream, I wanna eat badly!!! But im sick... =(( Cant eat... Sucks siaaaa.... I wanna buy the candies also. Things there are expensive. But still got the impulse to buy. Lol!!

Today I finally found a uni mate who is more tan de lai. Ruiting also worked in rws de uss before. It's so happy to chat about rws. hahahahaha... She speaks mandrain too!! Lol!!! At least is someone who I dun feel uncomfortable to talk to. =)

Happy Valentine day and happy birthday to van!!!! hohoho. Birthday on valentine. So special~~

CNY week over. This new week was invited with a lot of project deadlines and new assignments. Computer module bombard me with another wave of non-human language that I couldnt decipher. I dunno how human can create non-human language in the first place. Haiz. Hope I got those non-human brain to understand them too.

This year's ang baos were pathetic. =( All ang bao shrink. Maybe economy not good. But funny thing is economy not good, still can have inflation. I think the economic we learned all teach wrongly. Learned so much but all non-applicable in real life.

Finally no more sick and pain. But my mum and pei xuan jie jie sick. I wonder if I was the one who infect them with my disease or not. Feel bad. =( Previously, I dun have much appetite. Now, I feel like a hungry ghost. Lose weight. Should feel happy. But I think the way im eating, I will gain them back soon.

Went to do project at national library with shiqi ytd. Ate the brownie at the Hanis cafe downstair of the library. They suck. I think the brownies I baked are even better.

Pei xuan jie jie's wedding on 22nd may. She asked me to be her jie mei!!!!! I first time be jie mei eh!!! A bit loss at what to do. But im so excited!! Hahahahaha. I worked banquet de. Saw a lot of wedding videos before, served a lot of tables before, saw a lot of brothers and sisters before but never try to be a jie mei before. Now I can be jie mei, im full of anticipation!!! She posted on fb today with the dresses meant for jie mei. They are all so gorgeous on the models. Hope when I wear, they wun turn out like table cloth jiu hao. Wish that day faster come. Will be so fun!!!!

The 8 dresses she poseted and asked us to vote. I think number 4 seems nicer. =P

If we are open, baby can come too. But I think the chance not high... Haiz...

Btw, today is ren ri. Happy Birthday everybody!!!! =)

This year CNY was sucky. Becuz I fall sick at a very wrong time. All the diseases come full force at a go. Fever, sore throat and now rashes. I had a wonderful CNY nicely planned out in front of me to enjoy. But in the end, I had to spend Chu 3 staying weak and sick at home and almost couldnt watch movie on Chu 2. =( How sucky can it be?

I dunno what thing causes the rashes on my body. I looked like a red prawn now. Every part of me got itchy spots. I hope these itchiness will go away tml. I hope my fever and sore throat will go away too. I wanna enjoy my last day of CNY break before I go back school to meet my datelinesssssssssss...

My pinky finger was badly affected. =( The two pictures under- describe the redness and swollen of the finger. Im beginning to suspect that the itchiness is spreading to other parts of the hand.

Today we finally declared our relationship on fb. Though it met with some disapproval mainly come with concern that my parents might find out, I realise fb actually has very powerful security that can select who to view it and who couldnt. =)

Going 9th month soon... And there will be many more months to come... =)

Went K today with Ah zoe, zhenhao and ah yong kor kor. Laodi a lot of projects. Tml he still got presentation so he cant make it today. K time is so carefree. No need to think about anything. K until 11pm and still cant kick the urge to sing some more. So we extended it to 12pm. Much much credit to ah yong kor kor's good reputation and credit. If not, me and ah zoe very hard to stay out so late.

The song "Dreaming of you" is so nice. But teo heng's mv spoils the whole song. =(

Received unexpected msg. Makes me feel hopeful that everything is starting afresh. =) But it makes me feel depressed too. Cuz it means the thing I been guessing all along was correct. The conversation with zhenhao depress me further. I used to think that this relationship is a wrong wrong and wun last too. But now... I dunno. A lot of things had changed. Because of the level of understanding I had to him, I know that he is really serious. Even his 9 years good bro cum secret admirer who "love him with all his heart" also agreed that. But the people around me dun approve us that much. I keep hoping people will understand him too. But when I wanna defend for him, I dunno how to convey my beliefs over to them.

I felt worse because if they are my parents, their reaction would have been stronger. Got one national day song that goes "There was a time when people said that Singapore wouldnt make it but we did.." I wonder if we will become like that as well. LOL~ or maybe either one of us couldnt stand it and we go on separate ways. It's so tiring to think of these qns. I wish I go and sleep and the next morning I wake up, the problems have been solved.

Now I only wish to sleep and do nothing else.

I didnt know the tradeoff of our relationship is the straining of other relationships. Why cant I be greedy and have the best of the both?