Went K today with Ah zoe, zhenhao and ah yong kor kor. Laodi a lot of projects. Tml he still got presentation so he cant make it today. K time is so carefree. No need to think about anything. K until 11pm and still cant kick the urge to sing some more. So we extended it to 12pm. Much much credit to ah yong kor kor's good reputation and credit. If not, me and ah zoe very hard to stay out so late.

The song "Dreaming of you" is so nice. But teo heng's mv spoils the whole song. =(

Received unexpected msg. Makes me feel hopeful that everything is starting afresh. =) But it makes me feel depressed too. Cuz it means the thing I been guessing all along was correct. The conversation with zhenhao depress me further. I used to think that this relationship is a wrong wrong and wun last too. But now... I dunno. A lot of things had changed. Because of the level of understanding I had to him, I know that he is really serious. Even his 9 years good bro cum secret admirer who "love him with all his heart" also agreed that. But the people around me dun approve us that much. I keep hoping people will understand him too. But when I wanna defend for him, I dunno how to convey my beliefs over to them.

I felt worse because if they are my parents, their reaction would have been stronger. Got one national day song that goes "There was a time when people said that Singapore wouldnt make it but we did.." I wonder if we will become like that as well. LOL~ or maybe either one of us couldnt stand it and we go on separate ways. It's so tiring to think of these qns. I wish I go and sleep and the next morning I wake up, the problems have been solved.

Now I only wish to sleep and do nothing else.

I didnt know the tradeoff of our relationship is the straining of other relationships. Why cant I be greedy and have the best of the both?