Baby got confined. Thanks to his defense driving course this sat, he still got to book out. But the following week when he book in, he will be confined 2 weeks. 2 weeks!! Imagine 2 weeks. Omg. =( His confinement owe a lot to his bmt friend. Really need to thank this bastard guy big time. Baby lend his charger to him for him to charge his phone and call back. But good doesnt begets good. Today the instructor raid the bunk and found the charger. That bastard bmt guy told the instructor tat charger belongs to baby. I mean... What kind of friend is this... Really bastard lor. Then in the end made baby kana confinement.

I wonder what im going to do now. 2 weeks........ Haiz. Maybe it's fate that I have to use the time to study hard. Have to get use to it. Haiz. Book out time is so precious. =(

Hello hello

It's late I know. But I cant help but wanted to post this entry. Feel sad over a particular matter. I think humans should cherish whatever they have before it's lost. Life is short. I dunno why we should get angry or petty over small matter. Especially when it's concern long long relationship. I know it's hard. But the "Forgive and Forget" really is very impt terms. Im trying hard to achieve it too. I hope things will turn out well.

It's not easy to sustain 9 years of friendship.

Such a waste to let it go... =(

Went to study with celine ytd. But we ended up talking. Super not efficient. Even when im camping at home right now, I still dun have the mood to study. I think I slack for too long. I haven chiong for ages. Now I think I forgot what's the feeling to chiong. Haiz. We went manpuku ytd for dinner. I swear im going back there to eat the tarts!!! It's super fantastic!!!! Hmmm. Maybe bring baby and dua pui go also. But I scare the both of them will eat until we broke. What if manpuku let us eat until they no more ingredient??!!! I personally eat a little only la. I only scare the two of them. Haiz. Maybe I go eat alone can le. I scare later we they eat too much until reporters come and interview them.

I sat with the psycho girl again on mon. She is still as psycho as ever. And I discovered more stuff about her. She got bf eh! .... I know I very bad. But I keep imagining what type of guy will become her bf for 1 year plus cuz I cant even stand her for one lecture. Much less 1 year ++. She also very bad lor. She wanted to borrow my notes back home and in the end she never borrows becuz .... "I think u never take notes in lecture. My notes are more than urs. So I think it's ok." zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Ben xiao jie very nice dun mind lending u notes liao, u still wanna hiam my notes??!!! Dun borrow lor. I next time also dun wanna lend u. So angry. On the way out, we met kim ying. Kim ying is my poly friend. We very coincidentally switch to temasek poly after one year of study (she was in sp, I was in tpjc), very coincidentally stay very near each other, very coincidentally went into the same uni and now very coincidentally got the same module without us knowing for the past few weeks. After some interaction with psycho girl, kim ying also tabuleh tahan her. Kim ying is a very nice girl lor. Even she also cannot tahan her, imagine her psycho-ness. Psycho girl also generalize Fass students as "lazy". Totally..... #@$%&%&@%*

Anyway, she wanna add me on fb. I hope she wun find it in a million years. And even if she found it, I also wun accept. Haiz. How come the more I said, the more I think im the villian ahhh. I not villian lor. I really not villian!!!! Shit la.. I think nobody believes me. Dun care le.

Today is only wed. Miserable wed. Still got 3 more days. I hate weekdays to the max. =(

Koi not as nice as they claimed. Wasted me $3.50. I rather drink sweet talk.

Miss group dating le. Hahaha... Dunno yanni got read my blog ma.

I lost my ring today.... The ring that is so impt and held so much memories. =( I put it in my pocket ytd while shitting and I forgot to take it out. Laoma washed that short this morning. When I woke up and realised it, it's too late. The ring isnt in the pocket anymore. I tried to find th bathroom and the washing machine. But it isnt in there. The worst fear is that it had been flushed down the toilet bowl when my mum poured the used laundry water in. I offered my bro $50 + 1 week set up and wash plates + 1 massage bounty if he finds it when im in sch. But he cant find it. With such tempting rewards, I believe he had gave in his best alrdy. Which made me more sad and believe that I will never get my precious ring back. Im so sad. I wish miracle will happen and my ring will just appear at one corner of my room. But I think it's not possible. =((

I realised one more sad thing today. Though it happened in the past, I cant help but feeling sad and cruched by it. It's truely disappointing. And I didnt see it coming. I trust both so much. But it seems that my trust has been misplaced. I dunno what should I do and what I want to get rid of this negative thinking. I just wanna continue to sink in this sad feeling. Dua pui is right. ******* suck.

Met yanni and kelvin again last sat. We went to fly kite. Me and baby never fly kite before. It's our first experience! Following our last meet up, this meet up dun have awkwardness and is super fun! I love love to go out tgt. We also prepared a lot of foodssssssss. Yanni and kelvin handmade sandwiches and potato salad. While eating, they kept laughing sinisterly. So we tot they had add "special ingredients" that we dunno of. But we ate them all though. Only left potato salad which I didnt get to try. So wasted.

Fly kite is also very fun!

The greenie smiley kite is our kite. The red beetle is kelvin's kite. Yanni's sun and moon wasnt in this picture. I feel so happy to see smiley fly so high. Smiley smiled so happily in the air. =P We let it fly until the string ran at its maximum length. The wind in marina barrage is so cool!

Halfway, smiley's string broke off becuz of some stupid ppl who refuse to retract back the string when our kites got tangled tgt. Yanni was super angry. Smiley flew off to a nearby tree. A kind bangala helped us pulled smiley down and waited for us to collect it. =)

The feeling of disappointment weighted so heavy on me. That feeling sucks to the core. Our wonderful plans vanished like bubbles. Why must it turn out this way? =(

I think im a no patience person. And my temper is bad. I get angry easily and this isnt good. I feel very bad now. And sad. =( We wun quarrel anymore. I promise.

I met a very weird person during ssa lesson. She's very uptight and stress. I dun wanna sit with her next lecture. But what can I do??

Declaration

I think im very bold to say this on blog. But I really love mr cb chew mr bl chew very much. I know a lot of people have their interest best to their heart for me. I love love all my friends. But I also love love love mr bl chew. I wish one day they can see what I saw from him. I wish I wish one day I can strike a balance with him, my parents, cousins and friends. Becuz all of them are part of me that I cant part with. All of them are impt to me.

Hello im back~~~ Today is sun. One of the sian-est day in the week. Becuz tml is mon and baby book in today and tml need to go back to the miserable school. Worse of all worst, tml got one essay test during lesson. I hope time always freeze on beautiful fri and sat. =(( The cycle for every week just keep repeating. On one way, it's kinda good. Becuz I can enjoy the sweetness on weekend when my weekdays are so miserable. On the other way, it sucks to the core. Like it's torturing me.... the unhappy days got 4 and a half days in total. Happy days maybe only constitues 2 and a half. The end of unhappy days sucksssssssssss....

Sat we met up with yanni and kelvin. Yanni is my pri school good friend. Kelvin is my secondary school classmates. So coincident that they knew each other and got together. =) At first im worried. Becuz afterall, I haven meet yanni for so long. And at the start of the outing, she said it's awkward for them. It got me so worried. But after that we warmed up. And things got quite easy. =) The outing turns out not bad actually. We went to eat lunch, suntec IT fair, arcade, movie and dinner. Simple but easy going. Me and baby were scary eaters. We ate spagetti for lunch, ice cream for dessert, nachos combo and popcorn combos during movie and yoshinoya for dinner. The scariest part is baby still ate 5 packets of maggie mee with isaac as supper... The mouth like no stop one. I think yanni and kelvin a bit shock by our appetite. lol...

Today went haw par villa with isaac and dua pui. Isaac first time go. =D He so fascinated by the sculptures and really go and read one by one. Me, baby and dua pui went that place before. So we were playing meh meh instead. Hahahahahaha. The place very hot lorrrr. But we played until very fun. Meh meh here and there... Hahahahahaha. I very strong!!!! I can even meh meh dua pui and baby!!! Wahahahahaahahahaha... So proud of myself.

I wish everyday is like weekends. Weekdays suck. Im always alone. Not that I not used to it. But the feeling is totally..... I think the main problem is that im not making the effort. People ard me are trying to socialise like .... "Heyyy. omgggg.. ohhhh.. really??!! Hahahahaha. Ya joking with me..." But I find it really disgusting. So fake. Hate it hate it hate it hate it!!!!!!! Last thur I had a tutorial. A girl from my class whom I never talk to before asked me for my name and if I sit alone during lecture. I dun wanna be rude. So I told her I sit alone and everything. And she wanna sit with me. Actually im so used to alone. So it doesnt matter to me. Now that if im going to sit in with another person, I will start to worry what if there's nth to talk or watever. Haiz. I really think it's my problem.

Saw dua pui's blog. I also changed. Changed a lot i think. I cant accept it when ppl said I've changed. I can only accept it when I admit to myself that I've changed. Maybe some of my friends cant accept. But to me. Best friends are those who accept me for who I am no matter how much I have change. I know that no matter how much I have change, one thing about me that wun change are those memories we held together before. Like dua pui said.. one best friend is enough. At least I have baby and dua pui right now. Life is self sufficent. =) Im a blessed girl with goodest family, bestest dua pui and most wonderful baby. I love my life ......... no matter how school sucks. lol~

Last sat, a guy jumped off form my house building. He's only 27 years old. Leaped off from 11 floor. Landed at the concrete floor just outside my house lift. I think he died instantly. My mum happened to work in the morning that day. She worked at 6am. He jumped at 6:30am. It's a relief that my mum was already working by then. If she witnessed it, I think she will be freaked out. =(

Read from the news later that day to know that he was troubled at work. I understand that at points when a person is troubled, there may be a tendency to think of these thoughts. But no matter what, it's a bless to be alive especially when there's no pain and default in the body. There are thousands of people who wanna live and cant. A lot of disasters and wars left people struggling for lives and getting over the loss of their loved ones.These people wanna live but cant. So why should we, healthy, alive, with family and friends, think of the wrong path and end ones life? =( His family and friends should be grieving now.

Dear friends, I know I may not be a good friend sometimes but if u all need any help or need anybody to listen to ur sorrow, u can always call me. My hotline is always open. Dun let the unhappiness bottom up too much. Life is too beautiful. There are a lot of good foods, nice experiences, goodest family and friends for us to live for. Cant imagine one day if I die, I cannot eat mcspicy, donuts, drink double chocolate frappe, sing K, watch movie...

To be honest also... Im scare too. Haiz. Got someone jumped from ur house building, how to not be affected... =( I dun dare to take the lift too. Watched too many horror movies le. Keep thinking of those scary things. Qyz is so coward. =((((( Laopa also laughed at me. Luckily this week still got dua pui stay with me. If not, I will be alone in my room.

Happy 10th month baby!!!! Even though u are in camp and cant see it now~ =x

Hello!! haiz... weekend is over. just like that. Mon again. Restart again. I hate mon!!! =(( weekend is always the best... This weekend I went Sentosa with baby. Without dua pui zoe and mao mao. So is private time for us. =P So it becomes a date for us. First time see sunset. Hahahaha. So romantic sia... Sun really looks like egg yolk. The moment it sets, the speed of decending is quite fast. Feel so cool to see it actual. Not on photos or videos.

We went to siloso beach and rws. haiz. Feel sad for baby. Cuz he always went there to work. He never go there to enjoy and play before. Staff working in rws never walk around rws before! Haizzzz. I alrdy walk until dun wanna walk liao. So I become a tour guide for him. Brought him around. Candylicous still fantasizes me! I love everything there. We thought to buy something back. But in the end left empty handed. Lol. Only bought a ice lemon drink which taste fantastic!
Baby got special preference for Hard rock hotel toilet. Hahahahaha. Cuz last time work there always shit there. So when we wanna go toilet, we thought of the toilets outside compass ballroom... Hahahahahahahaha!!! But when we wanna enter there, we saw one aunty who we always worked with. Not that we dun wanna declare our relationship (our fb alrdy post until big big le!) but it's still awkward for us to visit back there as a couple. =P And somemore we haven went back for near 3 months le. Pai seh sia~

Mao mao got work though. He wanna aeroplane but we dun let him join us to be light bulb. I think we very bad. =PPPP So in the end he went to work.

Today is friday. I usually love love love friday to the max. But today's mood not very good. Strained me and laoma's relationship over some freedom issue. I tot I was old enough. But she never will think so. I should be happy that my parents so care and concern for me. I understand but sometimes it's frustrating. The way they control. Especially when u think to urself "Im going to be 22 years old this year and I cant go home later than 12am." Like ...??? Huh... wth..

But u know i know everybody know my parents' patterns. I love my parents. But I hate the way they control me when im so old alrdy. I think if one day my parents can be open minded, I will tell them everything. Seriously everything! But dun think they will think so. No beer, no club, no pub, no later than 12am, no bf, no work, no staying overnight, no chalet tonning, no going out so often, no late bathing, no late sleeping, stay at home, study... I know they meant well. And I know I used to be like that. But when I stepped back and look at it, I think it's seriously wrong. At this age, if im still like that, im really gone case, I think. I will be like those study freaks who just think of studies all day long. And now she said she's disappointed with me???!!! I mean... after all these years of studies and trying to excel academically, she said she's disappointed with me because I like to suggest chalet tonning???

Maybe kaima reject ah zoe to stay, I still can accept. Afterall, ah zoe 18 going 19 years old only. I think back then when I was this age, I was also barred from tonning. But me?? 21 going to 22 years old still need to ask permission if I can come home late. ..............

Anyway, after all these complaints, I never forget that they have their best concern for me. Im regretting about my black face I showed to laoma ytd night and this morning. I know and know and know that they are still the best. So if anybody who come along after reading and try to preach me about how and why they wanna control me, i will box that person.

"Im a peacock. U gonna let me fly!!" ........ But peacock can never fly...

Every sun, mon and tue seems like a restart of everything dreadful. I hate these three days. Even though im not working and weekdays dun seems so torturing to students, I still dread these three days like hell. Every week there are endless deadlines. Project deadlines. Every weekends seem like an escape to these problems. No need to do any work and enjoy purely. Nowadays when baby book out, we always got activities during weekend. The past weekends we been watching movies, eating ice cream, shopping, etc. Lol. So enjoy. So when weekdays arrive, I feel so dreadful. =(

But one good thing about it is that I dun have mid term tests like the rest. =P

Even though new year is over, I still wanna share this video cuz ah zoe just played this video when im blogging.

ps: A lot of vulgars...